Tuesday, April 07, 2009

2 years......

It has been 2 years since my cousin Roman passed away. And people say that it gets easier with time, but I have found that to be not true. Damn it still hurts. And when I see someone who kind of looks like him, or holds his head the same way, or hear someone who sounds like him, my heart stops beating and my breathe is taken away and something sharp stabs my heart. I miss him, very much. Not one day goes by that I do not think about him. And I know that I am not the only one, I know that my whole family still feels the same way.

This song has been on the radio a lot lately and every time it makes me think of Roman.

So Roman this song is dedicated to you.

I love you. I miss you. Rest in Peace.

*mid day update*

There is no doubt that today has been rough for us all, but this morning when I dropped off The Phi at school she pointed to her t-shirt and told one of her friends, "this is my cousin Roman". Later when I picked her up she was sitting at a table with a bunch of kids. One made his toy dog fart and The Phi threw her head back and laughed. And there was Roman's face. He lives on in all of us. Even in the little ones.

Rock on


  1. I know how you feel. "Gone Away" by The Offspring played alot when I lost my Tio. It's been 5 years and still hurts. With my Grandpa it's Volver Volver. We were at a SwapMeet and this little Viejito turned around and looked right at me,I burst out in uncontrollable tears He looked just like my Grandpa. When I looked back up he was gone. They never leave us and when it seems like we may forget them,they pop back in.

  2. I don't think it gets easier with time, it just gets a bit more tolerable. Mom and grandma died the same day in 2006 and it still stings. Its beautiful that you can see his influence and spirit in The Phi and around you. Wishin' warm thoughts for you.

  3. Good thoughts are with you all!


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