10 Years

Dear Cousin Roman,

As I pulled out my memorial t-shirt to wear I sighed at how worn it has gotten over the years. When I looked at the dates and realized that a decade has passed, since you have passed away, it made sense. Even though I only wear and wash it once a year, 10 years in a long time.

 It's hard to wrap my head around the fact that it has really been 10 years. It still feels like yesterday that you were here with us. I find comfort in knowing that you have been there, watching us and watching over us. You have seen all our happy times and been there for us during some really rough times.

You are forever one day away from 20 years old in my mind, but tomorrow would have been your 30th birthday. I sometimes find myself wondering what you would be doing if this disease hadn't taken you so soon. What kind of job you would have had, who you would have married. I know we always say how lucky we were to have had you with us for so long, but really it still feels unfair. You should still be here with us.

Roman know that I still think of you everyday. I miss you everyday and I love you very much.

Your Cousin,